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My thoughts
Whole night, my dark thoughts keep me awakeDuring the day, smiles are all that I fakeI’m trying to get a grip While my control continues to slip Counting down the hours at nightWaiting to see the sunlightI hope that the worst has ended That my mental health had been defendedIt’s just me against the worldLaying…
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The storm
Im adrift on the oceanWith a tsunami of emotion Huge waves of empathy Like it was sent for meIt’s a sea of despair And no lifeguard is nearTo pull you to safe landTo lend a helping handFloating over the unknown Feeling powerless and aloneAs you make it over the first wave Thinking I’m about to…
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Depression
Sitting here Alone in bedWith All these dark thoughts running through headDepression got me feeling downLike I’m trapped in a hole under groundI’m crying without making a soundIt’s only darkness all aroundMy demons got me against the ropeFighting hard but I’m losing hopeI could see No light at the end of the scopeFeels like sadness and misery elopePraying to see the sunriseWhile my brain is constantly telling me liesI know I’ll get through thisHappier times is what I missThere’s a club for happy people. I’m just not on the listStaring at the scars on my wristEvidence of the life that wouldn’t be missedWatching the mirror while making a fistHoping to escape and get bySo we turn to anything just to get highWe always say I’m ok,it’s just a lieTo get away from the attention, goodbyeI won’t give in, the rope round my neck I untieTrying to stop the tears falling from my eyeTo become a better person reaching for the skyIt’s cliche but I want to spread my wings and flyWhatever happens I won’t give upNever gonna quit, yeah that’s what’s upFighting through the sorrow and painBattling my own brainTrying hard to stay saneDoing everything to stay in my laneEven though life is better against the grainMisery is my dearest friendAs I pray for this darkness to endI could feel this walls closing inSo I hide my pain behind a grinPretending to be okThere’s no words you could sayTo make me feel better todayAnd to make all the self hate disappearI’m Feeling like the world just doesn’t careConstantly living in fearThat I’m not good enoughFighting against your own mind is toughTo feel all alone is roughDrowning in a pool of painMy tears they’re falling like rainStarting out the window paneDreaming of being normalSo all my responses are formalYou’ll never expect…
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Anxiety
My hands are sweaty and shaking My mind is uncontrollably pacingMy heart is racing This anxiety that I’m facing All my controll is erasingAn irrational fear, it’s time wastingIt feels like you’re infront of a crowd giving a speech Looking for words that’s out of reach Living in anticipation Fear is falling like precipitation Like…
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Self destruct
My whole life I’ve been this wayPushed everyone away, what can I sayI feel like I don’t deserve to be happyLike I earned the right to feel crappyI tend to ruin everything good in my lifeLike I’m aiming to fall on this knife Why do I self destructIt’s like I have no self conductAlmost like…
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Tired
This darkness is draining meOn a cold familiar road I seeThe sunken placeA bland tasteA feeling of not coming out this bedA feeling of being trapped in my headMy body’s feeling sore and weakFor strength and motivation I seekIt’s strange even the good memories feel sadMy brain’s downplaying every achievement I ever hadSo now it…